Monday, January 23, 2017

We officially have two 3 year olds

Well time flew by and now we have twin 3 year olds... crazy!! It's been an amazing 3 years... although the first year and a half was kind of a blur as in I cant remember much from that time lol... I get told all the time " I don't know how you do it Lani " and I honestly have no idea how to answer them... lol It all kind of just came to me, it usually does when you have kids, you end up adapting to everything around you. Honestly if you don't adapt, I don't know what would happen lol.

The twins have grown so much! They are so different it's crazy to believe that they were in my tummy together lol But there are days that their bond is so amazing it makes me happy that they have each other for life.



Coffin Family Reunion 2015

So we had the opportunity to host our moms side of the reunion in June of 2015. It was such a fun time having all my moms side of the family down here with us, we were missing a couple families that year. From the late night cooking, planning and not a lot of sleep but it was all worth it! We had so much fun with everyone.

The next reunion is actually this year, July 2016 and it'll be in Washington. Cant wait to see them all again!  

Friday, December 30, 2016

My Chief, My King ... Missing him always

I've never talked very much about this, only because it's too hard.

On July 19, 2010 we lost our beloved father, Faatui Pio Taliulu. Our dad was sick, he was in and out of the hospital, but he was still so strong! Hearing stories from my sisters during his last few days and weeks makes me so sad. You never know how it is to lose a parent, until you do. Can't describe it to you, but you can imagine what we were going through. All of us girls were such daddy's girls, I think I was the most though haha... I miss him so much! Its been 6 years and it still feels so brand new.

All we have now are pictures and memories of when he was here on this earth. I know my mom misses him the most, I mean they were husband and wife, partners in crime, eternal companions. I'm so glad mom has all of us here to keep her busy.

I really missing seeing our dad at moms church dances, he was always such a goofball and his dance moves were awesome! lol... One time he danced so hard that he collapsed and the ambulance came. I miss hearing his voice even though a lot of the time he sounds like he's yelling lol. I'm glad he was here for our oldest, Makisi, him and Kisi were such buddies, I was working then and would leave Makisi upstairs with him just until mom was home to watch him (it was maybe an hour or so before mom would be home). I remember my sisters would tell me the stories of when Makisi would be crying he'd try to make his bottles ( dad was pretty much blind during that time lol) and sometimes would give him mountain dew haha... I only wish he was here to enjoy my twins and the other kids that came after he had passed away. He loved his grand kids so much, him and mom did, mom still does...she spoils them so much when she can. Mom is such a strong woman and if I could be half the woman she is, that would be amazing!

Our mom never misses a holiday, she always hooks up our dads grave and his sister and brother each holiday.


We miss you so much daddy!! Kisses to the sky! Please watch over us daily, dad!


Our First Blessing

I know I'm doing all of this out of order... but I don't care haha...

Let's go back to our first child, Makisi Loketi Faatui Tuamoheloa, he was born on July 10, 2009. Wish I more picture of him as a baby, but our last laptop broke and all his pictures were on there, suck!! But we were so excited!!

I remember I had to go into labor early because I had preeclampsia, I got induced on Thursday, July 9th after my doctors appointment. I was in labor for so long, and wasn't getting any where, I was only dilating to a 2 and nothing more, then my doctor came in and asked if I wanted to start with more Pitocin and start again, by that time is was late Friday, I was so ready for  him to be here, so I opted for the cesarean. Next thing you know he was here, our beautiful baby boy, our oldest! He came out 7 lbs. 20 inches long on Friday, July 10, 2009 at 11:13 pm. 

I remember feeling so tired and out of it after the C-section, I was looking all crazy, felt bad for all of our visitors that night hahaha... mama was exhausted haha I remember when Will was feeding him his first bottle, which was only supposed to be a little bit of the bottle, Will let him eat almost the whole thing haha... that guy! lol Makisi was such a good mix of me and Will, he looked like both of us.


Makisi grew up so fast within the first year, he's grown into such a loving boy!

Makisi's 1st bday party



Makisi's 1st Christmas




 Grandpa and Kisi





 Makisi's Half Birthday cupcake party



                                
Kindergarten, 1st Grade & 2nd Grade

My Journey... My life...

So anyone that's known me ever since I was little I've always been teased that I "looked" Asian, I mean I do look Asian. lol  I've always brushed it off that the school boys were jerks, which they were. 😠 I just always thought I looked like my brother Nephi, and I got over it. One day while I was in Jr High, the teasing got a little more rude than usual, I had came home from school upset. I was talking with my sisters and mom, talking about how the boys at school were being annoying.

I then asked my mom "I'm not adopted am I?" the look on her face wasn't what I thought. I just started crying, I can't remember the exact year or date, but all I knew I was in Jr. High, maybe 15 or 16? After that my mom had called over my other siblings that were not living with us at that time to come over. We all just talked about what I had just found out. There were so many emotions going through my head, anger, sadness, I was confused. I was in complete shock because I never thought I would be adopted. It took a while for me to put my head around adoption, I didn't really understand it. But as the years went by it got easier and I understood a lot more.

From then on I've always had the urge to know where I came from, who my birth parents were, did I have any other siblings? Why did my birth mom give me up? So many questions were on my mind. Few years later my mom showed me my adoption papers and my hospital papers when I was born. It was crazy. As I became older I understood how much my parents that raised me and adopted me were amazing people, such huge hearts to bring another child into their lives after having 7 kids of their own. I wouldn't be the person I am today without having them in my lives and I am so blessed and thankful for them!! No matter what they'd always be my parents and my siblings.

You would only understand the need to fill that void of not knowing where you came from, if you had been through what I had been through. I mean I have an amazing family that has always been there from the get. Parents that never left my side, if I needed something they always came through. So I always thought "I have all I've ever wanted, why do I still have the desire to know of my birth family?" I don't know why, but I always had that urge no matter how much I tried to forget about it.

I would always look through my adoption papers and my hospital papers when I was born. I knew my birth moms name and the guy that signed my adoption papers as the father. So I had names to go with the ideas I had in my head. crazy huh? That time there was FB... I've always searched for their names in the search bar and had always came up empty with no results, I mean there were probably 10 or less people with the same names as them and all I knew where names and the city they lived when they were that young.

Then around March 2010, I was fiddling through FB looking for my "birth" fathers name. I noticed one search result and he was from Pearl City, Hawaii. I can still remember the butterflies in my stomach when I saw his name. Could this really be him? I'm crazy? This can't be? I thought to myself, how crazy would I sound if I wrote this guy a message and he was or wasn't the guy I was looking for? How embarrassed would I feel too? I contemplated for a few hours if I should write him a message. I eventually wrote him a message and I wont bore you with the details of the messages. But long story short, he was the guy on my adoption papers and he signed them, He had told me how he had met my birth mom and their short relationship they had. He eventually told me that he had his doubts that I was his because he had only been with my birth mom only once (which he knew it could only take one time). He was a police officer in Washington state, and has been for a while even back in Hawaii. He was a nice guy and talked to me often on how I was doing. He also found 2 pics that he still had of my birth mom and he mailed them to me, sucks I misplaced them and I hope that I find them again in my old boxes.

A month or so after I had found him, we decided to do a paternity test just to make sure. Tests came back and they were negative. I found myself let down and upset, that I thought I had found my birth father. So time went by after I had found out the results, we just stopped contacting each other, only cause I didn't want it to be awkward. Although he did write me on mothers day. I was way disappointed and wanted to give up finding my birth parents. I hadn't talked to him, 2010 was my last message to him until 01/23/2015, when I low and behold found my possible birth mom. AAHHHHHH!!!!

I was on FB and searched my birth mothers name and I found 1 search results, I then went to her page and her pictures seemed kind of similar to the old pics I had of her. Doing some research on her page led me to her daughters IG page. I then had a similar idea to message her daughter to see if she had known anything about if her mom gave up a daughter for adoption back in '88. I did and it was a great day! My twins also turned 1 years old that day and I had finally found my birth mother. What a relief I had. I had found out that I had 4 other siblings. We had message each other back and forth, exchanging pics she had of me when I was little to pics of all of the family I haven't met. It has been great finally finding them, I still keep in contact with them. If I ever find myself back in Hawaii, there will definitely be a reunion.

All I got to say is thank goodness for social media, because I wouldn't of found them otherwise.💗😉

So my life is different? who cares... I love my amazing life!! 💗💗


1 sibling not pictured here.
Monica, Me, Justine, Andrew and Veronica

My birth moms mom



Christmas in HI 2016 - 3 Generations

Matthew and Finau's Clubhouse - 1st Bday Party

 Their 1st birthday came so fast!! And then they were One! Had a Mickey Mouse Clubhouse themed party for the boys. So thankful so our family and friends that came through for our kids that day.
 1st bday pics done by Alexie and her new camera at the time


Growing Family

To follow my last blog... I'll just update how grown the kids have gotten within the 1st year of the twins.




 Twins with their cousin Jett (only 1 month older than the twins)


Our Boys  




Twins blessing day, March 30, 2014

Twins with Grandma Doreen


 Big bro so proud




 Easter - April 20, 2014


 Twins 1st Easter





Our family's tradition half birthday cupcake party 💗🍰


 My older brother, Matt meeting his namesake and Finau for the first time.


 Finau and Aunty Caprisse, first time meeting the boys too.



Our oldest turned 5 that year the twins were born! Man how time has flown by! We love you so much Makisi!! Had a small party for him and some of his cousins in Uncle Bens backyard. We rented a Wet blowup slide jumper for him and the kids.




September 23, 2014 ( Twins are now 8 months old)



Halloween 2014 - Twins first Halloween


Baby Lions, Hulk, Woody, Buzz, Samurai Ranger and Belle... Oh My?!